“I debated all week about posting this. I wrote it last week, but when National Infertility Awareness Week actually got here I was too scared to post it. But as this week ends, I think I need to put it out there. Even if just one person can find some comfort in it. You planned on having kids but you didn’t plan on struggling with infertility. You decided that now is the time to start, but after trying for a year you realize something isn’t normal and it’s time to seek out medical fertility help. You didn’t plan to keep finding other reproductive issues that may or may not be contributing to your infertility that continued to push back your plans. You didn’t plan on your reproductive endocrinologist telling you that they can’t figure out why you can’t get pregnant. You didn’t plan on feeling broken; like your body doesn’t do what she’s made to do. You didn’t plan on how lonely and heartbreaking the journey is even with support, love, and encouragement from others. You didn’t plan on crying in the bathroom at the family gathering because a family member asked you when you plan on having kids and another told you it was “time to get busy”. You didn’t plan on hiding everyone on your social media that announced their pregnancy. You didn’t plan on fertility thoughts consuming your every waking (and dreaming) moment. You didn’t plan on crying in your spouses arms month after month of disappointment. You didn’t plan on being told you could finally start another fertility treatment after 2.5 years of starting the journey. You didn’t plan on the rollercoaster of emotions you would feel during the process of your treatment. You didn’t plan on four people being in the room as you tried to conceive. You didn’t plan on being terrified every moment after having the treatment. And honestly, you didn’t even plan on the treatment working. You didn’t plan on feeling guilty about your treatment and pregnancy because other couples continue to have a longer and more difficult journey than you. But best of all, you didn’t plan on the joy, excitement, and disbelief you would experience seeing that first positive pregnancy test. You didn’t plan on thinking everyday how the struggle to conceive was so worth it. You didn’t plan on God telling you his timing is perfect even though you hated to hear it when times were tough. *If you are in the Greenville, Spartanburg, Columbia, or Asheville areas, the nurses, REs, and staff at Piedmont Reproductive Endocrinology Group are amazing. They take everything into account and truly care and root for you. They will cry with you, laugh with you, and comfort you. I encourage you to seek them out if you are struggling. They love God and they really love you.” Caity (expecting a sweet boy in October?)
